|What I wore: Boots, Target. Socks, DIY. Sweater, H&M. Necklace, Forever 21.|
My apologies for my absence yesterday.
I know how it freaks
people my mom and Amanda out when I skip a blog day
(I promise, even if I've been kidnapped, I'll convince my kidnapper to do a guest post for me).
But I'm not to blame for yesterday. It's all Lauren's fault.
Not really...but sort of. Sunday afternoon Ryan and I drove down to
Orange County to shoot Lauren's engagement session
and Sunday night I couldn't pull myself away from gawking at the
heart-melting sunset photos. I'll post a few when I get more time!
Because right now, I'm swamped. Writing + photos + school +
a schedule that's absolutely blowing my mind right now.
Which brings me to my next little tidbit of news.
At the end of this semester,
I'll be taking a leave of absence from grad school.
When I started my MFA program, I began with plans to
get a full-time college teaching position when I graduated with my Masters.
And, if I'm honest with myself, I think another big reason I wanted to jump into
grad school is because it seemed to validate my writing as a career,
not a hobby or an excuse to avoid a full-time job. If I was accepted into a writing program,
that had to mean I have some talent, right? And if I was enrolled in a program,
I felt like that gave me two years of "cover" where I could dedicate myself to writing
without feeling judged by other people.
But over the months that I've been in school, as much as I've loved
being part of a great, supportive writing community, I've started to realize that
in a few years I'm probably going to be more focused on starting a family
than beginning a 9-5 career. And if I'm not positive I'll need a graduate degree
for the career path I'm choosing, it doesn't make financial sense for us to spend
the money on an MFA program right now, even though the program itself is wonderful.
So, where does that leave me?
I'm still writing diligently and I'm spending a lot of time developing my new photography
business, which I hope will be both a fulfilling job and a fun break away from writing.
Years from now, when our currently non-existent children are in school,
I may go back for my Masters and pursue teaching. Of course we probably won't have loads
of extra cash then, either (I hear children aren't exactly cheap), but at least I'll feel more
confident about spending the money if I'm positive of the career path I want.
And right now, I'm happy with the choice we've made.
Happy to get through the next busy months and
very happy to focus on my writing and my photography.